To A Greener Side...: You & Me.

The begining of a whole new life. Wooow.. I'm now a wife. Someone's wife. It's not a lie. It's the truth. I still can't believe the fact that I'm now married,a wife, a mother and pregnant. It all seems so unreal. I kept looking at my marriage certificate to wake me up from my daze. It's not that i'm regretting the moments of being a wife and soon to be a mother of two, it's just that i could not believe that this day will come and have come. I am totally filled with excitement, passions, blessed and truly contented. Now, going back to my childhood life where there were times, when i was playing with my bunch of childhood friends, we would act out the wedding scenes that we depicted from the real life wedding that we encountered. We would pretend to be the bride and have a guy being the groom. We will adorn ourselves with make up and accessories, putting on our mother's stilettos and tah dah...the most horrible looking bride in the world. Haha..the lipstick was all over the external lip area, the eye shadow definitely too colorful and blue making you look as if you just got punched in the eye. The blusher was too red and all over the face, smudged mascara and painfully we do look like bozo the clown only a worse rendition of the clown. Haha..a colourful face that brought so much colours in my mind at this moment as i remind myself of those days. There were also scenes, where we pretended to playing mothers with our dolls. Giving them milk, taking a stroll with our doll in the stroller, hushing the baby doll from crying, feeding and dressing them or changing the wet diapers. Kids talks that we shared with each other on how will our wedding be, the kind of guy that we will want to be our husband, picturing the faces of our children, to the extent of how many children we would want to have. The excitements just ran down the adrenalins makin our heart pumps at greater beats. The crushes that we had on boys, the blushing moments being side by side with your so called 'dream guy'. The jealousy that overtook you when you saw your 'dream guy truly' being closed to other girls. What amazed me now is that these are now my past and i have crossed them. What was once called fantasy and dreamland have finally took it's spot in reality. No more pondering, dreaming and wishing on the dream guy. I have all the answers which i once baffled myself with. He is now here right by my side. The very man that lay down by my side every night and i wake up to each morning. The man that i wil devote all my time, life , happiness and sorrows to. He is Hairul, my dearest hubby. Just thinking of him right now, put on a smile on my just then sullen face to the most happiest woman on the face of the earth. True, more responsibility weighing me down as i agreed on marriage, more chores to be done, making the best out of myself to be the good wife to him, serving him, satisfying his every needs in every arena. On the contrary to all that, i now have the other significant me to share all my thoughts, fears, laughter and worries. Someone that i can run to and be more comfortable with, on parting my deepest secrets of life. Someone to hold me close to him, giving me the most fiery wet, passionate kisses and someone (adding on to the approved people in my life)to laugh at my stupidity and the childishness in me. I no longer need a bolster to substitute for my lonely nights before, I have him now to substitute for my abused bolster. After months of cataloging all the differences in life now married and before a single carefree person, i have truly accepted the change in the phase of my life, 'I'm MARRIED! Taken FOREVER!'. I just loved the sound and the trademark that i'm labelled with now. Most importantly, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, HUBBY. Thank you for being part of my life. And happy anniversary. To this, Ya ALLAH, Thank you for the best man in my life. Alhamdullillah.