An EMOTIONAL me!

I am a mother to a toddler.. A mother to a baby boy who is growing day by day.. It all started with falling in love.. exchange of vows.. got married.. given a gift.. a foetus was seen in my womb.. *the most wonderful moment of all* gender was known..ten whole months of morning sickness..*most detestful moments* then, anticipating the moment of being a new mom.. Finally, labour pains..contractions..multiples of it.. Scratching hubby's hand, biting him and almost ripping the skin off him.. Hours later, a baby was born.. A name was given.. sleepless night..jalan keng kang..hehehe.. and the baby started crawling, first tooth was witnessed, suddenly he started walking and Ta Dahhhh.. School rushed in..*playgroup ajer ler..* A big boy he is now.. Phewww!!!...A big brother to the younger baby too.. And I cried at his first day in school and him bringing home his first piece of artwork.. The RED HEN... Haiz...my first child.. He even helped me with my household chores.. Ahhh..he is growing...I feel sad but happy.. Why? Could it be a Mommy's denial or simply in love with her son?? or.. could it be.. The bliss of being a mother.. hehehe.. Everyday is full of smiles and a stream of tears.. A different feeling to go through everyday.. Some days are good and some days everything is just so wrong.. It is called life..And I am thankful for mine.. Be what may.. Syukur Alhamdullillah..